Published by Forever on April 30th 2017
Genres: Rock & Roll
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I thought I'd live in silence forever . . . and then I met him.
I'll never be able to hear, but music has always been a source of comfort for me. Rather than listen to the rhythm, I can actually feel the beat pulsing through me. It's pure bliss. So the moment I saw Thorin playing his guitar, I was mesmerized. I'd never seen anything more beautiful . . . or intimate. I couldn't tell where his body ended and the song began. He's everything I need in my life . . . I'm falling fast, hard, and deep.
I want him more than anything. But while I live in silence, Thor lives in secrets. He's holding something back-something that's keeping this intensity, this longing from being real. And the silence may be too loud to bear . . .
In my continuing obsession with reading about imperfect characters and how authors address those issues, I had to grab a copy of Live Out Loud which featured a musician and a heroine who was deaf. How will she handle a relationship where his life revolves around music when she can’t hear it?
It started off sweet. Harper became deaf after an illness which she was about three years old. Her parents refused to learn ASL and Harper didn’t do well with a speech therapist so she never wanted to speak. This made Harper’s childhood hard since her mother wanted her seen but not heard. She didn’t like her waving her hands about when people where visiting since no one understood her anyway and it just drew attention to her. After Thor learns that Harper is deaf, he asks her to show him how to sign, and every time he does this and takes the time to learn how to speak her language, she is so happy since no one but her friend has ever made the attempt. Seeing her light up every time he tried to sign to her, made Thor happy as well. That part was very sweet so I will give the author an A-plus for those scenes.
Both Harper and Thor have issue with their parents. Harper’s mother is controlling of Harper like her deafness makes her incompetent, although she is finishing school to become a pharmacist. Thor’s mother has just recently left her abusive husband who beat her and Thor for years. Because his father was a physically abusive drunk full of rage, Thor presumes he could eventually become like him even though Thor does everything to protect and take care his mother. Because of this fear, Thor keeps his relationships to one night stands until he sees Harper at a show and has an instant connection. He wants to get to know her.
On their first date, Thor takes Harper to his special secret place where he would go to get away from his father (even though Thor won’t tell her why he has a super secret place). This is an abandoned and fenced off public pool where he climbs into the empty pool and hangs out under the diving board. I don’t know about Harper, but I would be afraid if a guy I didn’t know decided to take me to an abandoned pool and at least text my friend where she might start looking for my corpse. You know, a “just in case.” It also seemed a little quick to take the first girl you actually take on a date to your special secret place, which is slightly creepy, especially since you have a communication barrier.
Thor doesn’t want to tell Harper anything about his father or his childhood. He feels she is too good for him and that she would want nothing to do with him if she knew he was abused as a kid. Really, Thor, you think your dream girl is that shallow? He clearly is holding back information which makes Harper unhappy that he won’t share with her. You can understand that he doesn’t want to discuss all his deepest darkest secrets. The simple fact is they weren’t dating all that long and obviously he has some bad stuff he doesn’t want to share yet until you get to know each other better.
While Harper had issues with her parents going back all her life, Harper visits home and has a heart-to-heart with her parents, leaving us with an everything is going to be alright now feeling, but then chapters later Harper’s mother finds out about Harper dating and jumps all over her telling Harper that she needs to concentrate on school, blah, blah, blah. So what was the point of settling all their issues in the middle of the book if nothing changed about their relationship?
There are some spoilery issues to talk about if you care to delve more…
This story had a lot of potential and started out well. I just think it petered out before it really developed the characters more than superficially and the ending was rushed or the author ran out of ideas and needed to finish up. In the end, I was just disappointed.